Oh, my beautiful boys.

Justin, sixteen years ago this month, you made me a mom.

Four years later, Zach you sealed the deal.

There has been no role in my life, nor will there ever be, more important than being your mother.

To say it hasn’t always been smooth sailing would be an understatement. It took me a long time to understand your needs and wants- autism often obscured your desires, left me feeling confused and incompetent.

But slowly, over time, I learned how to navigate your differences.

We forged a bond, cemented in struggle, trust, and love that can never be broken.

I want the world for you both.

Justin, in your adulthood I want a safe place for you to live, a room for your 8,000 toys. I want a fulfilling day program for you, kind souls to care for you.

I want your life to be safe, and dare I say it, fun.

Zach, for you I want the trappings of a more conventional life, because that is what you have always wanted.

I want you to go to college. I want you to drive. I know you will hold a job, have a wife. I can’t wait to meet my grandkids.

Well, maybe I can wait a while for that.

I want you to know I will always be in your corner.

I will always fight for you.

There is nothing I wouldn’t do for the two of you.

I love you both so much.

Thank you for making me a mom!

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